I love sitting in airports, having time to think about where I’ve been and where I’m headed. I also love New Years- a time to think about the past year and to think about what lies ahead.
As I sit here in the Cincinnati Airport on New Years Day 2011, the combination leaves me not knowing what to think. Thoughts about my brother coming home from Russia in a few months, my sister moving away from Provo to Boston, my girlfriend waiting for me across the country, seeing my “little” brothers starting to grow up up up, me moving apartments and starting a new chapter, interviewing for an internship on Tuesday, experiencing another Christmas and reflecting on all the past ones, celebrating my 23rd birthday, starting all new classes, zeroing in on career and important life decisions….and on and on. And to add to that, I just finished reading “The Hunger Games” series and “The Five People You Meet In Heaven”- two things that’ll get you thinking no matter where or who you are.
I wonder what goes on in the heads of all these people sitting in the terminal- also in some kind of beginning and ending.
I think back on 2010. Two semesters at my beloved BYU, folk dance, Into the Woods, Murder Mystery, 2 months in beautiful Alaska, dates and dating galore, owning my first car (I love you Jamie Rose), roadtripping across the country, working as an EFY counselor, starting the business school, making great friends, starting a Glee group……
All these things happen. People and things come and go. And it all leads to right now. Everything always leads to right now. Everything I have done or seen and everyone I have met and mixed lives with has led to this moment. And on New Years of 2012 all that’s going to happen this year will have led to that moment. The days and years slip by and we’re always living Right Now. It's hard to put into perspective how much "doing" things really means.
I don’t really know where this is going. The airport/New Years effect is really just muddling my thoughts all together. I like to end my blogs with a challenge to the reader. With an invitation to do or change something. But you know what? I don’t have one this time. Just live life to the fullest so that at all times, all the things you have done can lead up to this moment and you can be proud of who you ARE, not so much what you have done. Because what you have done will always be in the past.
Now go have one heck of a 2011.
